My Love Is A Life Taker

9:04pm: hey sup.....
-new lj
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add me. goooo
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i promise to keep updating this time..i swear

6:17pm: I love D@B band practice ♥

( mmm pictures )

8:28pm: Well, can I be anymore happier. I think not.
what went on this weekend:
-had ana over and we just talked about everything, it was nice :)
- saturday night we celebrated Jennifer Noelle Calantone's 17th year if birth. It was amazing. I love my friends more than life. especially when they do yoga.
-sunday was my day of nostalgia. I cleaned my room and found all of my random useless crap i had.
That was pretty much my weekend(I haven't done a real update in the longest time so this is really boring)

that's pretty much my weekend, simple and refreshing.
Oh and Jen just got her license. Yeah toe-tally going to pimp it. haha I can't wait till April.

Yeah I think I'm done.
Love you all.

11:33pm: septum..yay or nay????!

go comment

1:56pm: Your the drama queen of every scene. ..perfectly out of place
wow. i never update anymore. everything has been going by pretty good. Went to a show this weekend. the bands were really good. After watching all the bands , I have come to the conclusion it would be so awesome to be in a band. Just the rush of being up there must be amazing.

On another note, I have noticing recently that alot of the popular people in my school have been listening to alot of the same music as me. That makes me soooooo angry becuase I love these band and they listen to them and think its cool. It bothers me becuase a little while ago they would look at me in disgust becuase I was different but now the cool thing is to be different. I don't understand whats going on here but I dont like it. It seems like everyone is listening to the postal service and motion city. Yeah I'm probably just being a bitch but whatever.

10:25am: I never write in this. yep.

well school is going by exceptionally well.

It's the weekend. yeaaah.

I like autumn alot and I like walking around in the cold and looking at all the pretty colors. yeah I am a dork.

death cab in 20 days.

6:49pm: well this weekend by far has been filled with so many great memories.
warped tour fucking rocked. I love my friends and our music.
i saw
thursday
boys night out
billy talent
international noise consiperacy
coheed
taking back sunday
motion city soundtrack

By far , thursday was the best.They have been my all time favorite band since 8th grade and it was amazing to see them live. The mosh pits were insane, especially when your as little as sarah marshall. My feet were off the ground and i was just being crushed by so many sweaty bodies. I couldnt even keep track what songs they were playing. But if i had the option to do it again i probably would.

Boys Night Out was godly. I have never felt so close to a band , I adore so much. It took us a long time to find them but the minute we(Jen and I) heard "where we breathe" we ran as fats as we could yelling the words to the song as loud as we could. Honestly , I think Jen and I were the only ones excited to see them , everyone else kept staring at us. But when has that stopped us? lol

BY far this has been the best part of my summer. I mean the whole day had it's up's
and down's. My friends rock.

4:43pm: summer kicks ass.
I really need a job.
Love you all.

9:59am: YAY way to start of summer. So wensday I went to Kerri's and had a great time. We were in her room like the whole night and then Donna came and the party began. Kerri and I decided to make brownies and then had ate them after a coupel shots. lol Kerri had 17 and was fine and I had exaclty 5 and i was pretty tipsy. Donna had like 13 and was pretty tipsy and then she passed out. We were saying some pretty funny stuff. Then Kerri and I decided to eat..mm it was great. Then we all woke up and went back to my place and then went to the mall. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!! <3 Let's do it again. REAL SOON.

7:05pm: Kelsey: Happy Birhtday Love! Hope you had a great day!!

edit: I officially love summer and swimming with clothes on and trying to look sexxy with kelsey and lauren all dripping wet. haha I did like a flip in the water which hurt like a motherrrr. I love my friends and I love disco fries.

BRO THATS CLUTCH

7:19pm: the school year is now just memories.
This year is abruplty coming to an end. I'm so excited to see what summer is going to bring. I think just hanging out with my friends would be perfect. I love hanging out with them becuase they don't realize it but we are growing up so muche everday. I hate to say it but in exaclty one year, We all will be applying for colleges. The thought of college brings so many mixed emotions. Right now I'm excited to discover the feeling of living on my own but I'm nervous becuase what if I don't get into the college I want? It seems like I always set myself up for disappoinments but I guess thats how it goes.
I can't wait till next year. It is going to be challenging to say the least. I am nervous becuase I want to succeeed but I also want to have fun. I have honors classes which makes me feel smart. I have worked very hard to get where I want to be but I'm not quite sure if this is it. As much as I hated high school I loved it.The thought of having to move on makes it so much more difficult to have fun. I feel so pressured into doing my best that I lose track of things I really want to do. All in all, I hope next year is an incentive for me to do the best I can. Starting over makes living so much easier. I now can correct all the mistakes I made this year. One big mistake I made was caring about what classes I was in. I felt stupid but I realized I am just the same as anybody in higher level. I shouldn't be concerned, I should just be satsified with the grades I'm recieving now. I'm sick of comparing myself to others. I have come the conclusion it is human nature to compare yourself to someone. I just wish I was fully content with who I am.

I guess even when I'm 30 and I have a stable job and a family, I'll still find some flaws in me. I guess it's disapointing but it's the truth.

8:00pm: yay. Summer is almost here!! and life is so super. I Love every minute of it. I can't wait till this summer and all the crazy shit we are going to do..umm I cant wait!! <3 love you all

ps. tim is so super (forrreal) <3

7:16pm: So one last touch and then we'll go
and we'll go
And we'll pretend that it had something so much more
But it was vile,It was cheap
And your beatiful but you dont mean a thing to me.

Lately, I have felt very undescribable. I'm not depressed or angry I'm just blah I don't know how to explain. I just feel numb. I no longer cry over the little things because I feel pathetic. I mean I really dont ahve it bad, I just feel alone. thats all.

I defanently need anger management. I get really angry and it's bad.. super bad. I get super jeolous..I think it's cause I'm so insecure but I take it out on other people. I blame all my flaws on somebody else and I know it's wrong but it makes me feel like I can put my finger on all my problems.

This entry doesn't make any sense,but it was writeen for me to get out all my frustration. I think thats really how I feel becuase there is too much going on right now .I may hide it but it seems like I have no time to analyze it so I can try and fix it.
...i guess thats all.
love you all.

4:06pm: BIRTHDAY!
Today was a wonderful day. !!!! I had the bestest birthday becuase eveyrone was super nice. I got many compliments on my outfit. :) Everyone said I was soo cute. and the bestest part was CHRISTINA BAKED ME A BIRTHDAY CAKE!..mm it was delicious. I LOVE HER!!! we ate it during lunch and everyone was jeolous. I love everyone.Thank you to everyone who made my day super.! Not to mention the strawberry donut Risa gave me...mmmm . people make me smile.
<3


I also LOVE Tara Blackman just becuase she is the coolest girl ..EVER!

peace and love

1:13pm: pre-birthday party.
Yesterday was my pre- birthday party. Lauren,Dani,Jackie,Kelsey,Kara,Matt,and of course Meg came. I had a wonderful night and I got to wear a cute outfit and be the birthday girl. Everyone was super nice to me cuz it was my birthday. :) I got so many comments about my outfit from random strangers and that made me smile.Then we all decided to eat at CPK. the bestest place in the world.(mm)That was lots of fun. The waiter was nice to me and let me order first and then aftet the meal she brought out a sundae and everyone sang. Then I was about to blow out my candle and Lauren blew it out.(I was pretty upset but at my house i blew out the candles with Kev) So after that we went to Sephora and got pretty stuff and they had edible perfume and it really did taste yummy.After shopping, we went back to my house and my dad brought the new car and we listened to taking back sunday and sang "cute with out the e .." he sure got a headache but it was fun cuz it reminded me of Jen's house and Lauren's front lawn. Then we came to my house and ate cake. After eveyrone left Lauren called and then we talked then my cellphone started to ring and it was Paul. He wanted me to go to a party in Mawah.To tell you the truth I really didn't feel like sneaking out becuase both my parents were up and I'm not good at lying .haha SO I just told him I didn't want too, then he said he would call me tommrow. and that was my night... Thank you for everyone who came . Thank you for the prezents!! <33 Love you All!!

TO Jen- feel better. <3 I'm sorry about the knee
TO Kelly- I love you and I'm sorry u couldn't come and I LOVE YOU LIKE WHOA

9:12pm: nothing-ness
Well I dyed my hair. looks like shit. You can't even tell, it just looks the same
:( Maybe I'll dye it jet black or something ..i dont know.(Any Suggestions?)

In other News: Yesterday we celebrated Kevin Chisvette's 16th year of birth.That was truly a wonderful night. yet again we had a little encounter with sem dog food,but I didn't even look at it..I swear. after that we went for a little walk to hershfield. Mind you this is friday night, so there were cops.They were super nice.Then we met some nice boys that decided to smoke a blunt.mm pot. They were nice but one of the boys looked "Awfully" familiar, turns out he was one of the boys that were making fun of my height when we went to go visit the Pompton people. Oh man, He made my day absolutely terrible and I got to meet him again. So Lauren told him how much he hurt me, quite Funny I might add. Then they left and Lauren took off her pants and pranced around Hershfield in underwear.(i love my friends) Did I mention on our "journey" to the park Jen decided to take a piss in the lake. It was funny. Then after all this we decided to go back to Laur's and we just sat on her lawn staring at the stars.(how emo)It was a nice way to end such a fun night.I had a wonderful time.

7:32pm: I would like to start off, by saying :
14 days till my birthday
I'm super excited becuase I'm going to be 16. yay. Life has been so fun lately.I got an 84 on spanish test which i was sure I failed and that made me all happy then mommy went out with me and we bought hair color and I'm going to dye my hair saturday. it will be a redish auburn color. I'm so excited I just hope it looks noticable.Everybody ahs been peachy and it makes me peachy eventhough spring break is over.
The week is going by slow but we have friday off!! yay

I have to go study . I love eveyrone !

6:58pm: i <3 my friends
so . this weekend has been once again eventful.
I battled it out for an eggroll .
None the less we both lost.
I wonder if the eggroll is still under maggies couch
Friday I had many firsts.
1st i ate dog food
and thats it.
tasted like spam. thats right spam.
i got silly string down my pants.
that didnt feel very nice.
i think it melted.
that is all
i hope you enjoyed me update.
love

1:01pm: nice-ness
yesterday was dab..i miss going to shows being the loudest there..(always).Somehow I am always doing something crazy whether it's picking fights with really tall people or associating with little children.haha
So first kendall came to my hosue to make the sexiest shirts ever and we wore the same hoodies too. god we looked to hot.Then we went to the show and i saw everyone.They looked so unique just like the wiggles.Then met up with everyone and that was crazy. Then kelly went to the dollar store and bought cereal and we were spitting that out and throwing it at people and then..the potato war... ah great times. then kev went on .they were amazingly stupid. it was so much fun but i couldnt see so i got on andrew and sme other guys shoulder..sorry i dont know his name. haha and eveyrone was looking at me and some stupid slut that stole laur's money copied me and i got mad. then we went to the diner afterwards that was fun. DAB is playing again..i expect to see you there.
-may 29!

2:33pm: discard this message
Life has been wonderful I can't wait till spring!! mm it's gonig to be so super. I miss all my friends and I can't wait to see them ..tommorow ! For meg's birfday bash!I love my friends so much, they make me the happiest person alive becuase I know I can count on them.

I also love everyone at hills, it feels like I'm finally getting closer to everyone. I haven't opened up to them in a while but now that I have I realized how much I miss them and how I am incomplete with out them. Everyone is super <3! I think it's really refreshing to know that we're almost done with the year.I have made some really good friends this year and I also have gotten close to the dorks.I love the fact that i go to a different school but we still all makes make time to hang out. I think gonig to a different school has made my friendship stonger with them. I <3 u guys no matter what.

my friends are the best <3

11:43pm: why do i even bother
dear love,
i dont understand why you do this to me. I slowly let you in and you push me away. I like you more than you'll ever imagine and I get pushed to the ground. Your slowly ripping me apart. I don't understand why I like you and you dont care for me.You say you do but its all lies . everything. I want this to all go away. It seems like you make up lies just to please me. I'm still trying to recover from everything. I'm sick of of your bull shit .I want you understand I'm a person, I have feelings too. I miss you dear but what can I say.. I can't have you.

Yours truly,
Sarah

6:18pm: boys are stupid . sarah marshall rocks. i win at life ..please comment and leave love

10:06am: Life has been so busy..havent had time to update.nothing really cool is going on. life has been very content thought..its actually really cool now ! oh yeah ..it just seems to be very calm and relaxed but upbeat. i mean im buzy but its great becuase i dont have to time to sit there and cry and complain about my life and i love it ! i wish it could be this way forever

7:01pm: yay for fencing!
I had my first meet yesterday. It went extremely well!!!! I won the last bout!(5:1)
It felt so great cuz I was sooo little and small and beat her plus one of the girls on the other team said i wa short and that got me pissed so i had to get back ! i got her in the leg which was so clean and perfect! plus mommy and daddy showed up and the first bout i saluted to them. teehehe.Honestly, I'm so drained but despite my lack of sleep and low grades Im Extremely Happy! I can honestly say yesterday made me feel like I was apart of team even though we lost I love my team to death!!
peace and love!!!
~sarah

12:08am: SHAUN WHITE!!!!!!!
IM SO OBSESSED! I LOVE MY PICTURE HES BEATIFUL AND AMAZING AT SNOWBOARDING AND SKATEBOARDING ! BE PROUD OF ME! I DID IT BY MYSELF! ITS BEATIFUL..lol i kind of miss the jackass-ness so i kept johnny knoxvile lol..!
peace and looooove!